How to Love When You Don’t Feel It 24/7 June 24, 2011

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A couple of weeks ago my pastor, Jonathan Weibel, asked me to speak about the SparrowFly mission at church. I stood in front of these people I love so much and told the story. Afterwards, the thing most people commented on was how my passion inspired them. That was cool, because I wasn’t “trying to be passionate” in the way I delivered the message. Like I said, I was just telling the story.




My passion for the lost and praying for them seems to remain pretty consistent. When I workout, I look at our map of the  world and I pray for different countries (especially China because that’s the country my daughter wants to go to someday). I pray for people as they run or bike in front of our house. I pray for people in the grocery store who appear to be hurting or broken.


However, I don’t pray for the Sparrows 24/7. They are not constantly on my heart or in my thoughts. Every time I read something in scripture, I don’t immediately apply it to the Sparrows. I don’t dream about them at night and I don’t see pictures of them in my toast in the morning. In fact, if I’m being totally honest, there are days when I don’t think about them at all. I had a day like that just two days ago. I was beating myself up because I hadn’t spent time on my face weeping for the souls of the Sparrows. I was feeling weighed down with that all-consuming, heavy cloak we know as GUILT. Yuck.


But something wonderful happened. Colette, a friend who’s on the SparrowFly team, Facebooked (Is that a verb now??)  me that she had been praying for the Sparrows and God took her to Psalm 25:15-18 to pray over them. When I read that I smiled. The Lord was saying, “Janet, this is why you don’t do things alone. When your passion wavers, it’s burning bright in somebody else. It’s wonderful to share passion. Don’t be jealous when somebody else is burning and you’re flickering. Keep praying and obeying and your passion will be a mighty flame once again.”


Now I find comfort in knowing that there’s an incredible group of women who are sharing a passion for the Sparrows. If I’m not on my knees, somebody else probably is. And for those times when I am calling out to the Creator on behalf of those girls, someone else on the team may not be thinking about them at all. And that is just fine.


Passion was meant to be shared.


Not a sparrow falls without the Father knowing,



3 Responses to “How to Love When You Don’t Feel It 24/7”

  1. Tim Says:

    That’s such a good word! We’re so glad you’re blogging Janet – so much wisdom. Praying for you and Andy

    ~Tim and Sarah

  2. cindy Says:

    Wow Janet– thanks! I have often felt this way– so much is on my heart but not always in my prayers. This is an important reminder that we are not alone..but a fellowship of believers who lift one another up…

  3. Norris Says:

    Bookmarked, I enjoy your blog! 🙂

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